We all have insecurities and internal issues we struggle with. To live our lives from God’s perspective, a place of confidence in Christ, though it is an instant position we obtain when we believe, it is a constant battle to stand firm when things continually come against us.
In our standing firm, we sometimes lose are footing. We slip from that confident place and begin to live our lives from a place of fear and timidity. We wouldn’t call it fear because it’s subtle. You are not running scared, but you can be found hiding because you’ve been hurt or wounded. These hurts hit our inner most being and the wounds war against our confidence causing us to shrink back from living our lives from a bold confident place.
The last several months I’ve sensed the Holy Spirit breathing confidence and boldness back into my life. As I mentioned above I wouldn’t have considered myself lacking confidence, but I found myself slowly slipping instead of firmly standing. I didn’t realize how much I was lacking confidence until I started to regain it. I wanted to share with you briefly how I’ve been regaining my confidence 0ver the last several months.
- A Friend Called Me Out – Proverbs 27:6 says, “Wounds from a friend can be trusted.” I was hiding in false humility. I had given myself a title God hadn’t given me and therefore discounting my ability. The truth hurts, but when spoken in love truth heals. Wounds from a friend will heal the wounds from a foe! To be honest it was like strange armor fell off of me that day. I was hiding behind a lie that the enemy had spoken, and truth set me free. I changed the name of this blog because of it and I’m no longer a backseat leader. I am a confident leader in Christ.
- I Was Reminded of Where I Was Before I Took the Blow – One hit can put you into hiding. I isolated myself for two years after being hit hard by circumstances. Recently, I took sometime to dig through some journals and files and rediscovered where I was personally at before taking the hit. I had strong vision, dreams, goals and aspirations. I realized that all of these things were from God, yet I had put them on the back burner after being blindsided by the enemy. As I read back through some of the things I had written I could feel boldness rising up within my heart again. I am a bold leader in Christ.
- I Regained Confidence in Who God has Called Me to Be – I am currently leading a small group called Destiny Finder that helps identify your Destiny Orientation. I’ve went through a lot of assessments like the DISC, the Myers-Briggs, etc., but Destiny Finder has been so timely in confirming and reaffirming my spiritual calling. I am a builder, I am a leader, I am a pastor, I am prophetic, I am strategic. It’s not telling me anything I didn’t know, but it’s serving as catalyst to crystallize my calling at a critical juncture in life. I think we have a tendency as we get older if things don’t go as planned to drift from our destiny. This process has anchored me in my calling and released a new confidence to pursue what God has called me to.
Continue to stand confidently in Christ! It’s where our only real confidence comes from and the place where are calling becomes clear.